Crapp

I am tired of getting crap from people!!! OMG, it's like April is the worst month of my life!

Is it impossible to find a decent full-time job with an MA degree? what the hell is wrong with the world? My resume is like 4 pages long and my portfolio is like a 100 pages! And I`m only 26 years old (not 45)! What do people want? do I need to be a super-woman?!

Forgiveness

How could one forgive if she can't forget? In my constant search for closure, I've begun to come to the conclusion that I do not need to forgive someone in order to forgive myself for trusting them and for loving them. Forgiveness doesn't come easy. I realize now that I have a hard time forgiving someone who has not acknowledged the pain he inflicted on me. I can heal and forget the past if the other person apologizes and acknowledges the way he treated me in the past. I can live with that. But I hate arrogance! I am not ready to forgive those who gave me pain, made me suffer and yet blamed it all on me. Understanding, emphaty and kindness is all I ask for. Is it too much to ask?

I guess not many people are able to do that. No wonder why my blog name is Utopia?!

beautiful in my eyes

"I will always be beautiful in my eyes." Woow! What a powerful and empowering sentence! I think it takes a lot of confidence to say such a thing about yourself and I hope one day I`ll be able to say it for myself. It's not easy with constant criticism and judgement we receive from the outside world and within ourselves but if we don't believe in ourselves first, then who will?

My blog

I have always been hesitant opening up a blog because I am intense. You'll see what that means once the blog will be full of my words...